For a very long time, and over many lives, the instinctive urge for reproduction and preservation of lineage and race has been supported only by the power of lust and not by the higher idea of rita, universal order. This has created deep impressions in our unconscious and subconscious minds, which are working powerfully in the background. For this reason, despite all our efforts at controlling and sublimating that power, it triggers itself forcibly and overwhelms us.
In certain situations, our subconscious mind tends to
deceive us, generally in a very subtle way — even by turning diplomatic — and
in consequence we may find it difficult to understand its ways and secret
operations. To try to access this subconscious mind demands a subtle intellect
as well as careful and repeated introspection. We have to develop a highly
watchful inner eye capable of scanning the intentions of our own mind at
different levels. We should constantly analyse what we feel and what we think
in the company of other people — whether anyone attracts our mind sensually.
The process demands deep sincerity and humility on our part at all times, not
merely under particular circumstances.
We have to safeguard against the error of imagining that we
have succeeded in getting rid of lust by the mere fact of having lived a
secluded life for many years, or by experiencing a little feeling of serenity
and purity. Rushing to test oneself may be a sign of overconfidence. Swami
Turiyananda advises: ‘Never pride yourself on your having gained control over
the passions. If you do, they will at once raise their heads. Ever pray to him,
“O Bhagavan, save me from them”.’
Repelling Depressive Thoughts
Guilt feelings are a tremendous torture, and brooding over
them only makes the problem worse. Depressive thoughts are very dangerous, both
in secular and spiritual life. Among other things, they weaken us. We have to
learn from our mistakes and try fervently not to repeat them, but never brood
over past failures. Asking sincere forgiveness with the firm commitment not to
repeat the mistake works wonders in reducing depressive thoughts. Sincere
apology restores some dignity in the guilty person.
When we are struggling with our senses and mind over an
outward attraction or mental picture, we should have ready at hand several
weapons for prompt action. Never should we rely on one means alone. Japa, prayer,
intense and one-pointed visualization of a holy personality, repetition of some
holy passages, rhythmic breathing, the company of spiritual people, the
production of counter-thoughts — one or more of these methods can be utilized
as the occasion demands.