Obsession is a mental disorder. It causes only discomfort.
Instead of worrying over little things go out and have fun.
It is true we failed a couple of times. Now try with a happier and positive frame of mind. We will not fail.
The journey for peace and happiness is often undertaken in the wrong direction. The right direction for this journey is to the inside not outside.
Bliss is always with us but unfortunately, we never realize it.